Tuesday, December 26, 2006


don't know if anyone read my super long entry from Dec 18... but I've been thinking a lot lately about the gift(s) that God puts in each one of us...

and if any of this strikes a cord with you... or speaks to where you're at in your life...
then here's something you should read that was written by my friend Mike. no, really... read it... what else are you going to go do right now anyway? go check out some more stupid clips on YouTube? you have 3 minutes... i know you do... so take it.

Hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas! much love, k.

Monday, December 18, 2006

it's late...

you know how sometimes the things that are obvious to you are simply not to other people? like when someone you know is extremely talented or gifted in one area and they don't see it? well, i realize that can be true with myself too.... and so tonight i asked Rebecca if there was something that she could see in my life that maybe i don't or don't pay enough attention to that she might see as a natural thing... something that i could/should do... a path or direction i could go... that would be more natural for me. there are special unique things that are in each individual life that is a part of their own unique dna... and some people never make use of their uniqueness... they never use their gift. never flex that muscle or go that direction... i do not want to waste what i've been given.
and i will not. i will not be one of those people. well, Rebecca's response was thought provoking... and as she mentioned, to NOT do what God has gifted me in... would be wrong. why run from the things that God has put in you? it's funny because i hear stories about people who spend their lives going one direction and then one day they decide to step out and do something totally different- do the things that God put in them. be one of those people... start small if you want... but START. start moving in the direction where your gifts lie... those things are in you for a reason. and it's your duty to share them... right? i feel like i'm already using some of my gifting... i'm not sure what it's going to look like 40 years from now... but at i'm going to start working it more... and more.
i dare you to ask one of your closest friends if there's something they see in you that maybe you don't (or don't want to see). don't ask your smart-a friend... ask the one who really knows you... the one you can talk to about anything.
side note: have i mentioned that i love music? man, i'd love to work in music in some capacity... geez... (YES, i'm listening to music right now.) maybe i can have 2 jobs... yeah, i think that's what i'll do... totally do-able...

have you ever truly tried to put yourself in someone else's shoes? have you ever imagined what it's like to be them, look through their eyes at what they're looking at, step on the ground they walk, eat the food they crave, smell the scents in their life, feel their hurts, feel their joys, depend on the money they depend, sing the songs they sing, drink what they drink, hear the songs they hear, feel the passion the feel, cry their tears? sometimes when i read things, i try to imagine myself as that person...
but in real life, imagining yourself in another person's shoes can also help you understand them...
i say this because on saturday night i went to eat a local restuarant where they have been serving some of the best
specialty sandwiches and deli-type food in tulsa since 1965. yes... since 1965... almost 42 years. well, i'm guessing that many of the patrons we shared our meal with on saturday night may have very well been coming to this restaurant for these 42 years. and i tried to put myself in their shoes...
went with my dad, mom, & grandmother. at first it seemed as though we'd walked in on a special dinner for the elderly... and then i saw the elderly gentleman sitting on the stage playing his keyboard and singing the tunes from his younger days. wow. talk about walking into someone else's world. we sat down and ordered. and then the gentleman started playing and singing "It Had To Be You". and several of them started singing along... and they sang and they sang and they sang. and they sang. they sang the entire time we were there... and i sat there and watched and listened and tried to put myself in their shoes. i was honored to be eating with them on saturday... they were awesome. i imagine that many of them go there every saturday night... or maybe they travel back and forth to their favorite local diners... but they stick together and they dress up and they remember together and they sing their songs... and they laugh... and they sing. there's something special about this specific generation... their songs are different... and when they're gone... a part of their songs will go with them... because no matter how much we try to put ourselves in their shoes we don't have the memories associated to the songs that they have... the first time they heard "It Had To Be You"... the world was a different place then. not only that but think about what a night like this would be for a group of people who were from the hippie era... what about the punk rock era? i have a feeling that the music from these other generations won't have that same warm
nostalgic feel... they'll have feeling... but not the same!
my grandmother started singing along a little bit... and i could tell that she was loving it... and i tried to put myself in her shoes... and i could see why she was loving it...
they were still singing when we left... maybe i should frequent there more often on saturday nights... call me a romantic... but i think they're cool.

my sweet brother, Jared, graduated from OU this weekend. i'll post a couple pics soon. but my pillows are calling my name right now... much love... k.

Saturday, December 09, 2006

5 things...

Steph tagged me to share "5 things that you don't know about me".

okay, if you know me at all… you know that I’m open book… so I really had to think to come up with 5 things that people wouldn’t know about me… had to go way back… to childhood stuff… so here you go:

1. when I was a little kid (like 4ish) and my parents used to take us on road trips, I would stare out the window the whole time… looking intently at each street sign we passed… looking for Seasame Street… I never found it…
2. when my brother was about 5 and I was about 9ish, I punched him so hard that it knocked the wind out of him… and it scared me SO BAD that I never hit him ever again (not with my full strength anyway).
3. My first pair of Nike shoes played a big part in a terrible incident that left me hanging upside down from the fence in our yard… by my shoelaces. (yes, please, take this time to imagine little me dangling upside down by the shoelaces.)
4. One of my favorite meals as a kid was baked beans & dogs heated up in a skillet w/ some mac-n-chesse on the side. Hhmmmm… actually…. that sounds really good right now… ☺
5. The first memory I have of going to the movie theater… was to see Annie. And I loved it… loved the music. Yeah, give me a break… I was 3…

Speaking of childhood… today one of my childhood friends is getting married. Wow, not sure I’m ready to go to this wedding… I hope I don’t have to be escorted out… I just might be crying my eyes out on this one. It’s weird to feel like you know someone… even though you really don’t know the most recent things in their life. I know the boy in him from our innocent days… the boy from tree climbing days… from baseball in the summer… from teenage years… and struggles… and we were close… soulmates. We used to write each other letters. Getting letters from him was one of my most favorite things in life…
I’m looking forward to seeing him tomorrow… and being at his wedding.

Friday, December 08, 2006

just elfing around

thanks to Steph, i have a fun little jig for you... enjoy this Merry Christmas dance... from me to you.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006


Layna & Joel!! They just got engaged today! whoohoo!

yeah, my cousin Joel popped the question today & is now engaged to Layna! Congrats to them & whoohoo! I'm excited to have another girl in the family! geez!
anyway, tonight i'm typing from my hotel room in Austin. Here for a business seminar. i've already met some interesting & friendly folks. i sat at a table tonight that was full of people from the east coast... we talked about NYC... and it kinda made me miss it... i'm definitely going to have to make a NYC trip every couple years (at least). going on trips solo makes me more outgoing. i made friends with a New Yorker in the car rental line... and we raced each other out of the airport parking lot. who says New Yorkers aren't friendly??
can i just say that i HATE Austin's roadways!! Good Lord!! what the heck?!?! luckily i have a GPS system in my rental car... but even the GPS system can't figure it out quite right! when i realized it was leading me in the wrong direction, i turned around and told it to reconfigure... and then it was fine... but that was a close one!
on the plane trips here i sat next to women on both flights. and both of these women were mid-fifty and pleasantly plump(i don't know why i say pleasantly... it's just the nice thing to say i guess). and both women were very friendly... but they didn't force me into any conversation... you know, sometimes i just don't want to chat on planes... sometimes i do... but sometimes i don't... so it was nice not to have to. both ladies could easily be characters in movies or on tv. they were funny... and had fun personalities. the flight attendants on my second flight were crazy. they were yelling at passengers and were very short-tempered... yikes!
my hotel room is nice... there are 2 beds... and 7 pillows on each bed! i'm thinking i'm going to surround myself with 14 pillows tonight and drift off into a blissful, pillowful sleep.
well, i'm going to go ahead and jump into those pillows and try to get some sleep... i have to get up early tomorrow! hope everyone is doing well! ciao for now.

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

fun times

Why do I do this to myself? Why do I start writing something late at night? Ugh! I need more sleep in my life! Especially as of late… 16 hours in uncomfortable shoes on Sunday was enough to cripple me… I’ve been hobbling around for the past 2 days… trying to act like my feet aren’t still killing me. Geez! Anyway, that being said, don’t judge me for my poor punctuation skills tonight.
So I’ve been meaning to write for awhile… in fact, I wrote something about a week ago… I wrote this huge long thing… and right as I hit the “Submit” button, it was all deleted. 2+ hours down the drain. Yeah, I said 2+ hours… needless to say I was annoyed… but what could I do but just wave it good-bye and go to sleep? So that’s what I did…
Anyway… to Bethany, Steph, and whoever the rest of you are who occasionally read this… yes, I had a great time in NYC. A better time than I expected… but I guess part of that would be because I had no idea what to expect to begin with. I bought a camera the night before I left… and I’m so glad I did. I took tons of pictures. Spent a lot of my time in the Manhattan area… it was such a colorful experience. The sights, sounds, smells, people… the energy really was captivating. Easy to get caught up in. Talk about a romantic place! It was a very surreal experience… I felt like I was literally in the movies for the first couple of days but then I got into it… I started to become accustomed to the busy way of life… I started walking the way they walk… I started crossing the streets the way they cross (there’s a way)… I started to communicate & talk the way they talk(just the facts please)… I started living in it… and I liked it. BUT I don’t think I could live there permanently… I could definitely do a vacation home or something (yeah, like $ isn’t a factor). We went to tons of places and saw tons of things but we still didn’t have time for it all. Thanks to myspace, I was able to reconnect with Matty G and he showed us around a bit… took us to fun places like Little Italy, Chinatown, Time Warner Center, and tons of other stuff. Ingrid & I went to Macy’s and just walked the city one day. It was a lot of fun… eating dogs in Central Park, strolling down 5th Avenue, touring the Empire State Building, taking a Harbor Tour and seeing the Statue of Liberty… good times.
Yeah, so thanks for asking Blee… I can send you (any of you) some pics if you’re interested. It was interesting just to live in the NYC world for a little bit… totally different than anything at home. GEEZ, the taxi rides alone were definitely life-changing experiences! Brought me closer to God I tell ya! I was praying for forgiveness & salvation, recommitting my life to God in those first few taxi rides!
Well, I’ve been listening to some great music tonight… the kind that makes me think about climbing mountains & busting down brick walls & driving at 100mph… the kind that makes you think crazy world-changing Big Ridiculous Impossible thoughts. The kind that spurs dreams that you can’t escape… the kind the rekindles the fire inside. I say all of that to say that I could write all night… and go on and on about stuff… and change the world and everyone in it with just this one entry… but it’s raining and it’s late and I need some sleep… and I think tonight’s rain will help me sleep… but I’m going to write some more stuff soon… so look for it. Hope everyone is doing well. Ciao for now.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006


yesterday, late afternoon, I surrendered and joined myspace. yup, sure did. still haven’t worked on my page… haven’t done the about me or anything yet… but I’ll get around to it… :) anyway, here it is: http://www.myspace.com/playintune

my parents came over last night to hang out for a bit… and they brought Marie Callendar’s pie with them. oh hallelujah… yum.
boy, am I one sleepy kid today. stayed up kinda late again. and my neighbors didn’t help… they were making all kinds of ruckus last night! the joys of living in an apartment.

I’m headed to Manhattan, KS to a friend’s wedding this week… leave on Thursday. They call it “The Little Apple”… how cute. I like Kansas… it’s under-rated.
anyway, get back from all that jazz on Sunday. Then I’m going to turn around and leave for the “Big Apple” on Tuesday morning! Yup, I’m headed to Manhattan, NY!
I get to visit both Manhattans within a few days of each other… how funny is that?
Anyway, it’ll be my first time in NYC. I’m really looking forward to it… and I’ll be sure to take plenty o’ pictures! If anyone has any “must-see” suggestions, email me!

ciao for now!

Tuesday, October 03, 2006


i have a little toad friend who's recently showed up... he greets me and welcomes me home in the evenings when i get home after dark. he's not always there... but i look for him and wonder how he's doing when he's not there. i think that a lot of people have toad greeters or toad doormen. i know for a fact that my friend sarah does... and i can think of a couple of others too. hmmm... i guess that toads are friendly little buggers... must be socialites. i wonder if they having a greeting committee... maybe that's where he is when i miss him and he's not at my doorstep... at the toad greeting committee meeting.
so about my audio class... i know you're wondering about that Steph! it was a huge HUGE success. basically left class with a huge goofy grin on my face... i always thought that i had a good ear... and it was only proven last night. everyone loved LOVED Rebecca(vocalist). In fact, they loved her singing so much... that they freakin' gave a standing-o! yeah, i'm not kidding. i'm siked. i'm ready to start recording like a mad person! i asked my teacher tons o' questions...
anyway, everyone loved it and my teacher said it was really REALLY great. and that's quite a compliment coming from him. i love GarageBand! i can't wait to learn all about ProTools!
again, it obviously could not have been a success without Rebecca (McFreakinAwesome), Danny, and Joesf... so thanks to them!!!
i'm listening to Blue Merle's cd "Burning in the Sun" tonight. they're good... check them out. i like their life-like sound. does that make sense? sounds like they're right here in my apartment singing... his voice isn't crowded out by the music... it's above the music bed... it sounds great. the sound of Blue Merle reminds me of DMB... but it reminds me of David Gray and others too... but yet it's still original... different in some way. but i don't like some of the songs because they're depressing... so i just skip those when they start to get me all depressed. why don't people make happier music anyway? not that everything has to be happy all the time but things don't have to be freakin' depressing all the time either. Blue Merle's happier songs are the type of music that i would like to paint to... or write to... or drive to. a few of my favorite songs of Blue M so far are "Part of Your History", "Bittersweet Memory", and "Places".
okay- i'm out- later ya'all- i gots to get some sleep tonight.

Sunday, October 01, 2006

I ♥ Music.

i'm sitting here listening to Sufjan Stevens... his "To Be Alone With You".
I like it... it's more than what it seems.... it's deep.

anyway... we recorded music tonight. we recorded the song i needed for my audio class. it went really well & it was a lot of fun. Good thing was that i didn't end up having to do the guitar part... hallelujah! i met a guitarist at the music store yesterday... so he played for us tonight. Rebecca did the vocal... and she did awesome... no surprise there. i have a feeling that my recording is going to be better than anybody else's... thanks to Rebecca, Joesf, & Danny. :) It sounds soooo great... love it.

it's weird cause i'm sitting here listening to Sufjan... and i like a lot of his music... but there's some of his stuff that i could do without. so it's funny how you can like one artist and then turn around and really like another artist that's totally different. Guess that's the beauty of music... that it doesn't all have to sound the same to be good... to be enjoyed... by someone. We briefly talked about Janis Joplin tonight... and it's not like she had a stellar sound 100% of the time... I mean, think about Janis trying to make it on American Idol... not too sure she'd be able to make it past Simon in the try-outs!
And i'm sitting here thinking about Sufjan's music... a lot of the titles are whacked out... such as the titles on his Come On Feel the Illiniose! album... read these whacked out titles. Luckily crazy titles don't stop people from loving him and his music.
To each his own... that's all it boils down to.

i think Sufjan Steven's music reminds me of the movie "I ♥ Huckabees" in some weird way. Saw the movie "Little Miss Sunshine" last week and i recognized one of the songs in it as a Sufjan song... i think it might have been the song "Casimir Pulaski Day" or the ending of "The Transfiguration"... the 2 songs can sound similar to me. Not that anyone cares about this besides me... anyway... hope everyone has a great week... it's time for me to hit the pillow... cause i'm half asleep!

Happy 1st day of October.
love ya'all.

Monday, September 25, 2006

stepping out

so as i was buying a bag of "FUN SIZE" Butterfingers the other day I was thinking... why call this little mini-sized candybar "FUN SIZE"? To me, the "FUN" size is not the 1 inch piece of candy... i would think that it would make more sense to call the KING SIZE candybar the "FUN SIZE". I don't know, maybe it's just me... but i think that the more candy you get, the more "FUN" it is. They should call this little 1 inch bar the "JUST ENOUGH". Everyone knows that this is the size that you buy to hide in your desk drawer at the office or in the kitchen cupboards...

Ever have those moments when lights of clarity go off and flicker in your head?? Maybe while listening to a song, while singing a song... or while talking with a good friend?? I've experienced some of those moments- some of those "lights" lately... while doing those 3 things. Don't you love it when that happens? Those are the moments that keep me going... the things that i have to remember when i feel like i'm literally battling... blood, sweat, tears stuff. I pray that God keep you & guide you as you battle whatever you're facing. I pray that you have little lights and moments of clarity that make it all make sense... make it all come together in your head to give you the bigger picture of what it is you are fighting for or against...
or maybe you're not fighting anything at all... i hope you can still experience those flickering light of clarity moments regardless of where you're at in life right now. those moments are important.
speaking of fighting, i read a quote today that almost brought me to a Braveheart battlecry.
even though it may not make sense out of context, i'll share it with you:
"If you are willing to do a frightening thing, if you are willing to run toward the sound of the guns, if you would fight with all your strength against self-righteousness: step out of yourself and see the truth your adversary sees." -Roy H. Williams

no, i'm not a Roy H. Williams groupie... seriously... those people weird me out. any and all groupies weird me out... not just the Roy groupies.

Tuesday, September 12, 2006


Lightning photo courtesy of spaceweather.com
So I'm taking this audio techniques class on Monday nights now.
Much to my surprise, the professor is actually going to the trouble of teaching us the VERY fundamentals of sound... for example, we're learning about at what frequencies the human ear hears and things like wave paths. It is fascinating stuff... I'm not sure any of us were ready to leave when class was over.
GET THIS: Do you know what the sound of thunder is??
The sound of thunder is the sound of all the notes in the musical scale at once.
I cannot tell you how cool that is for me... all the notes in the scale... all at once... thunder is... not just noise... it's music. how can all the notes in the musical scale all at once be an accident? Reminds me of the string theory and the theory of everything.
it's awesome... I am so excited about the things I'm learning in this class. And I thought all I was going to be getting out of the class was how to do audio mixing!
and get this: the end of the course project is to record/produce a song.
sounds way more fun than most of the classes i took in college.
hope everyone is having a great week.

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

coordination skills

just in case you missed this rockin' awesome live performance from the OK GO boys on the VMAs...
here it is: OK GO.

Monday, September 04, 2006

i need more

the long weekend is winding down. bummer. oh well, at least that means that we'll have a short work week. :)
last night i drove down the highway on my way home with the windows rolled down, sunroof wide open, and the music turned way up. and i was happy... i was happy for the invention of cruise control and the invention of the sunroof. the wind was blowing my hair all over the place... it was a wonder i could see anything... it was so therapeutic. it was really great.
i own a pink chair. it's an antique. i acquired this chair from my grandmother... and i love it. i think i've almost decided that it's my most favorite piece of furniture that i have. i got to thinking about why i love it so much... and i think i've uncovered why i love the old pink chair. call me sentimental... but i think i love it so much because i know that my grandfather once sat in it... reading his newspaper... or sleeping... or watching tv... or smoking a cigarette. it was a part of his life... and now it's a part of mine. since he died when i was 1-year-old... there weren't whole lot of opportunities in that one year to get to know each other... and so you take what you can get... and for me, it's the chair.
i guess you could say that the pink chair brings us together in a way... it's a part of the family. hmmm... who knew all that could be wrapped up in a chair? seriously haven't ever thought about it until today. funny...

p.s. found a fun blog if you're interested: http://hughe2030.blogspot.com/

Saturday, August 26, 2006

nicole, steph, & me

from Steph's visit... out on our girl's night. :)

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

2 things

the scripture of the day:
Many plans are in a man's mind, but it is the Lord's purpose for him that will stand.
Proverbs 19:21 (Amplified Bible)

the dictionary.com word of the day:
tete-a-tete \TAYT-uh-TAYT; TET-uh-TET\, adjective:
1. Private; confidential; familiar.
2. A private conversation between two people.
3. A short sofa intended to accommodate two persons.

Tete-a-tete??? i've never once heard this word used in conversation. anyone? anyone?
I'm going to go sit on a tete-a-tete now and have a tete-a-tete. that's right you heard me... a tete-a-tete on a tete-a-tete.

Saturday, August 19, 2006

the Fray

have i mentioned that i like THE FRAY? and Issac Slade?
since i missed their concert here, i'm really thinking about traveling a great distance to go see them in concert in September. why not? i need a vacation!! why not make a vacation out of it? man, if i could only pull it off... we'll see.

get this, according to AOL, Isaac mentored a crack-addicted teen, providing the inspiration for the title track How to Save a Life: "I wrote the song about how there's no formula for bringing somebody out of that."

Sunday, August 06, 2006

from page 18

so i'm reading this book, Bird by Bird. it's pretty good stuff...
funny thing, i read something in it the other day that sounded very similar to something i wrote here in June... my another fog blog.

anyway... here's the paragraph from page 18:
E.L. Doctorow once said that "writing a novel is like driving a car at night. You can see only as far as your headlights, but you can make the whole trip that way." You don't have to see where you're going, you don't have to see your destination or everything you will pass along the way. You just have to see two or three feet ahead of you. This is right up there with the best advice about writing, or life, I have ever heard.

is that good or what? because it's so true.

i'm listening to The Fray right now... i love music.

Adam & Melissa's wedding

remember my little brother? yup, it seems
jared's all grown-up... weird. :)

Friday, August 04, 2006

i like icecream...

yes, i like ice cream...
and i LOVE guacamole...
but i'm not sure i would have ever thought of Icy Hot Avocado Ice Cream.
hmmm... sounds interesting... i just might try it.
i also found Alton Brown's recipe for Avocado Ice Cream... but i'm thinking the icy hot recipe sounds better.

Monday, July 31, 2006


i recently bought some new towels. i love them.
yesterday i bought a new toothbrush. i love it.
this morning my motivation for getting up was the thought of my new bath towels and my new toothbrush. i love the feeling of new. but i have to say that as i was getting ready for work and realized that my reason for getting up was a towel and a toothbrush...
i started to get a little depressed.

but new is good... right? i should be excited about my day regardless of whether any new towels or new toothbrushes are involved... right?
speaking of new, i got a new job... well, same place... just a different job... and yeah, it's a good thing... it's a happy thing.
so now i've got my new job to get me up in the morning... my new bath towels... and of course, don't forget the new toothbrush. but something tells me i'm out of focus... cause as cool as all this new stuff is and as grateful as i am... none of it really matters in the long run. there should be something else getting us up outta bed... i'll stop here before i get too serious & philosophical... i think you all know where i'm going and what i mean. refocusing... i need to do more of it... daily.

back to the toothbrush... seriously... don't you just LOVE the feeling of a new toothbrush or is that just me?

last week Rebecca introduced me to Sudoku.
i've played 5 games so far. i don't remember how long my 1st game took... my 2nd game took 15 minutes... i gave up on my 3rd game... my 4th game took 20 minutes... and gave up again on my 5th. they say the average is 6 minutes. what? average for who? who are they talking about?
you know what? i'd like to see Raymond go after a sudoku puzzle. i'm thinking he'd have it solved in a minute or less... he'd blow the record.

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

drip... drip... drip...

i recently added the following two quotes to my little quote book… and thought that they were both worth sharing:

Most men lead lives of quiet desperation and go to the grave with the song still in them.
-Henry David Thoreau

Many people have a wrong idea of what constitutes true happiness. It is not attained through self-gratification, but through fidelity to a worthy purpose.
-Helen Keller

could it be that most go to the grave with the song still in them because they’re too busy trying to attain self-gratification? no, I’m not preaching at anyone… well, maybe a little to myself...
geez… apparently I’m a fan of both Thoreau & Keller… a lot of their quotes have really struck a chord in me.

it’s not a matter of whether or not there’s a song there… it’s a matter of bringing it out… bringing it to the surface... finding your music, your instrument, your rhythm, your voice, your style.

what’s my unique contribution? what’s yours? when do you notice your song playing?
what is it that makes music leak out of your soul?

I can’t believe it’s the end of July already! what?! speaking of which, it's freakin' hot!

p.s. STEPH & MATT are coming for a visit soon! yeah for visits from friends!

Monday, July 17, 2006

burritos, clocks, and billy joel

it's almost been a month since i've thrown a line or two up on here... so i thought i'd go ahead with an update. my gosh! how time freakin' flies! anyway, i'll keep this short and sweet.
woke up this morning and decided to sleep in a few extra minutes... it turned into about 20 minutes. ended up being only a couple minutes late to work. :)
an old friend stopped by to say hello...
had lunch with some coworkers... discovered that Emily eats burritos starting in the middle. she always starts eating them from the middle. hmm.
discovered that another one of my coworkers sets every single one of her clocks exactly 25 minutes fast. another hmm.
had a weird afternoon... but made it to 5pm.
had dinner with my parents.
listened to "easy listening" on the way home tonight... and actually enjoyed a tune from Billy Joel of all people!? what?
decided to jump online and shop for a new phone... still can't find a phone that i wanna buy... but in the meantime i made another impulse buy & bought another ring tone. geez! they get me everytime! (and no, it wasn't Billy Joel!) peace out.

Monday, June 19, 2006

today's Monday Morning Memo

Thought I'd throw in an inspiring excerpt from today's Monday Morning Memo... it's definitely worth sharing... and worth reading a couple times.

While speaking at the Sorbonne in Paris, April 23, 1910, audacious Teddy Roosevelt looked the French coldly in the eyes and delivered his famous admonition, "It is not the critic who counts: not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles or where the doer of deeds could have done better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood, who strives valiantly, who errs and comes up short again and again, because there is no effort without error or shortcoming, but who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions, who spends himself for a worthy cause; who, at the best, knows, in the end, the triumph of high achievement, and who, at the worst, if he fails, at least he fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who knew neither victory nor defeat."

And you wondered why the French tend not to like Americans.

now, is that good stuff or what?

Monday, June 12, 2006

another fog blog

I was driving to work through some fog one day last week. I love driving through fog. it seems like I always have some sort of spiritual breakthrough every time I drive through it.
here’s how it went: I was driving and thinking: dang, I can’t see very far past the fog… can’t see where the road leads… I see several feet ahead… enough to feel safe going ahead… but can’t see the entire road and/or landscape. and then I started thinking… that’s how I feel about life right about now. I can only see so far… can’t see past the fog… I don’t know what’s ahead but I can see enough to feel safe moving forward. this sucks… but it’s kinda cool in a way…

moving into the unknown requires trust & faith that there’s actually something or some road in front of you to go to. as I was thinking about this… I was thinking about how I knew where it was I wanted to go(I knew the location of my destination) but could only see a little bit in front of me at the time. and then all at once it seemed that God was trying to tell me something & a light went on. I know your destination- I know the road in front of you. I know how you’ll get there. You just focus on what’s in front of you right now and I’ll lead you down the road you need to go. You know where you want to go and I know how to get you there. Trust Me.
sounds easier than it is though... it requires a daily decision to trust Him... a daily decision to believe that God knows what He's doing no matter what it feels like & He is strong enough & big enough for anything that might come my way. But like He reminds me, I just need to focus on Him- right now- and let Him take care of the future.
so there you go everybody. :)

Thursday, June 01, 2006

I just received some sad news.
Russ Tatro, a great man of God, passed away this afternoon. Russ served through foreign missions since 1985. He and his wife, Wendy, served as missionaries in the nations of Guatemala, Liberia and Sierra Leone pioneering Bible training centers during their years in West Africa. Well over 100,000 students have graduated from LWM-affiliated Bible training centers and many of these graduates now serve as missionaries leading ministries throughout Africa and other parts of the world. They established Living Word Missions in 1993.He is survived by his wife and their two daughters. Pray for Wendy & the family that God will give them strength & comfort to continue the missions work that she & Russ started so many years ago.


i'm at the coffee shop across the street utilizing their wifi.

it's raining outside... it's been raining a lot lately.

several weeks ago one of my friends was talking about kids and discipline. anyway, she said something about finding out what the child's "currency" is so that you could discipline them in the most effective way. each person has a different "currency". each person is different. somethings are more important or less important to others.
the day after we had that conversation, i asked my wise friend what she thought my currency might be... and i've continued to think about it off and on. what is your currency? what do you live by? mine is friendship.

Rebecca mentioned about a week ago that she thought people were trying to live their lives like Laguna Beach. what a good observation... i hadn't thought of it until she brought it up... and it's sad but true. so many people are trying to play the part... have perfect lives... have the look... have the image that everything is in control and everything is perfect. guess what? it's not. you're not on tv and people don't hear a theme song when they see you walking down the street. but i have to say that i do think that it's okay to have your own internal theme song playing in your own heart, soul & mind. pick a good one. pick one that helps and doesn't hurt. ultimately the only thing that can make you happy is a real relationship with God. when you can accept His love for you... things will be a lot easier...

thought i'd point you in the direction of one of my favorite blog reads.

Friday, May 19, 2006

fun times

Cyndi has been after me for weeks to update the picture on the blog... since it's a couple years old...
so here's a new pic that she took yesterday. :)
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Tuesday, April 25, 2006


i saw an amazing thing on Saturday night... the Grambling State University Marching Band. they performed at the arena football game that i went to. yeah, i said arena football... it was actually fun to watch... believe it or not. http://www.gram.edu/band/default.asp
This is the same band that has performed for Presidents and First Ladies, Kings and Queens from the USA to Zimbabwe... they've been seen at numerous Super Bowls and Presidential inaugurations. I guess the GSU band has even starred in their own Coca-Cola commercial. Who knew that a marching band could be so cool?

yup, the band WAS cool but this is somewhat of a cop-out entry because i've got nothing but seriousness floating around in this head... for about 2 weeks now... not exactly blog-friendly thinking... it wouldn't be blog-friendly writing.
but yeah... very cool & impressive marching band. the had the coolest guy leading it... not sure what his official title is but he was COOL. guess i should go rent Drumline... haven't seen it yet.
maybe i'll write a more substantial entry soon... i hope... :)

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

the sound of music

on my way to work this morning, i saw a woman in her SUV head-banging and singing along to the music. it was awesome. made me crack up laughing... made me happy to see that i'm not the only one who gets carried away. but i like to include the airdrums too...

speaking of music, i hope everyone knows about http://www.pandora.com ! If you don't, allow me to introduce you... it's awesome and it's free. You type in the type of music you like- maybe a song or an artist- and Pandora will take what you enter in and play other songs/artists in the same genre of music... it's pretty cool. i'm listening to music via Pandora right now. i've been introduced to a lot of great new music. love it. Thanks Roy.

Sunday, April 09, 2006

whoo-hoo for wireless!

we finally got the wireless network up and running this weekend... so what am i doing? watching Miami Ink and using the new laptop at the same time... whoo-hoo!
i love Miami Ink.

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

risky business

i’ve had this great little black leather journal for a long time… but until just recently I’d never written anything in it. you know, it was just one of those things where I wasn’t quite sure that I wanted to fill yet another journal with MY ramblings or whatever… but a couple of weeks ago I finally decided that the journal couldn’t live without words any longer and came up with the perfect use for it. I decided that I’d start writing little quotes in it that I’ve been collecting for several months.
so now I’m filling it with quotes like this one from Helen Keller: “Life is either a daring adventure or nothing.”
this has become a pretty inspiring project for me… maybe because I’ve chosen a lot of quotes from people who have defied odds, overcome obstacles… like Helen Keller. she was one amazing person.
someone else who defied odds? Walt Disney. Did you know that he was once fired from an ad agency because he was told that he “lacked ideas” and couldn’t draw? um, yeah, I’m betting that the guy who fired him ended up feeling like a huge idiot later... and rightly so. Disney once said this: “It’s kinda fun to do the impossible.”
I love that.

speaking of great quotes, I read a motivating article yesterday. If you’re interested, it’s a great read. It’s written by Margaret Feinberg and there’s a diamond analogy that she includes in this article that really made the light go on in my head… or in my spirit… whatever.

The things that stuck out to me in this article:
“Courage requires the belief that something greater than yourself is at stake. It also asks you to trust that Someone greater is at work. “
“Learning to fly is risky business. Crash landings usually hurt, and it's hard to get up, brush yourself off, and try again. Stepping out and doing what you were created to do rather than what is expected of you is hard. Even faith is a risk, so living a life of following Jesus is littered with risk.”

Does that speak to anyone besides me? are you willing to step out and do what you were created to do rather than what is expected of you? RISKY BUSINESS!

oh well, like Helen said, “Life is either a daring adventure or nothing.”

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Bublé in concert

Michael Bublé performed in T-town last night… and I went.
oh my… it was something else. at first I felt like I was at an Elvis concert the way the old ladies seated in front of us were carrying on… they kept hollering and dancing & swaying to the music. it was pretty funny. obviously there were women of all ages there screaming & going crazy but it was the 2 old ladies in front of us that I thought funny… did they think he was Tony Bennett?
anyway, he put on a great show but I gotta say that I could’ve done without so much cursing… but oh well… you can’t have it all. I hope Bublé eventually realizes that it doesn’t help him in the “being classy” department to have such a mouth. when it comes to the singing though… obviously he was great. sings as great in-person as he does on his recorded albums. he forgot or messed up on his words a couple times… but it’s easy to look over little mess-ups when his voice is so great.
it was a mix between Elvis, Desi Arnaz, the Rat-Pack… and Johnny Knoxville. He was pretty funny & he did a few impressions of other people like Ray Charles, Johnny Cash, & yes…even Michael Jackson.
it was definitely an entertaining evening.

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

have you watched Cash's video yet?

Your Career Type: Social
You are helpful, friendly, and trustworthy.Your talents lie in teaching, nursing, giving information, and solving social problems.
You would make an excellent:
Counselor - Dental Hygienist - LibrarianNurse - Parole Officer - Personal TrainerPhysical Therapist - Social Worker - Teacher
The worst career options for your are realistic careers, like truck driver or farmer.

boy, good thing i gave up truck driving.
in other news, look at what I came upon:

Monday, March 06, 2006

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

been there- done that- bought the t-shirt.

well, haven’t exactly been “there” yet or done “that” quite yet… but I have bought the t-shirt. What am I talking about? I’m talking about that dream inside every person’s heart… the one that calls out to you & wakes you up in the middle of the night. That thing you would finally do if you had all the money in the world… if there were no boundaries, no walls, no bars… the thing you would do if there was nothing holding you back. What is it that you dream & daydream about? What have you always imagined doing with your life that you haven’t quite done yet?
As for my dream- well, no, I’m not “there” yet- haven’t done it yet- but at least I’ve bought the t-shirt. I’ve bought into my dream… at least I can say that- can you? If you can say “yes” then that’s great, it takes something to own your dream. way to go- you’re on the way to making it a reality. you believe in yourself or God (or both) enough to know that you’re taking the first steps.
For those who haven’t quite owned up to the fact that your life is for a reason bigger than yourself- if you can’t own up to the dream that’s in your heart- or if you lost sight of it 15 years ago- it only takes one decision to turn that around. you CAN own your dreams. I have a feeling that after you decide to buy into what your heart says- after you own your dream- it’ll only be a matter of time before you own your life & are living it… or should I say giving it…?
so, c’mon, whatcha waiting for? as cheesy as it may sound- buy that t-shirt.

Monday, February 27, 2006

never too late

a co-worker sent this link around today- you need to check it out.
don't know how long this link will be active but it's a cool story.

"It is never too late to be what you might have been. " -George Eliot

Friday, February 17, 2006

myspace vs. my acumen

so i’m contemplating the whole myspace.com thing… should i do it? should i take the plunge & give into peer pressure?
oh, btw, hope everyone had a fabulous Valentine's Day!

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

most of the time, they don't talk at all, because they walking.

I watched Hustle & Flow last night. If you can’t handle rated R movies w/the f-bomb and other R rated activities, then it’s not for you.

So, what’s it about? Here’s the plot in a nutshell: DJay is a pimp suffering a midlife crisis, yearning to be a rap star, and after being galvanized by a gospel song, he gets to work, finding it a very hard road to fame and respect.

In one of my favorite parts of the movie, the character Key(played by Anthony Anderson) gives a lecture to DJay(played by Terrence Howard) about not just talking but about walking.
KEY:There are two types of people:
Those that talk the talk and those that walk the walk.
People who walk the walk, they sometimes talk the talk.
But most of the time, they don't talk at all, because they walking.
Now, people who talk the talk, when it comes time for them to walk,
- you wanna know what they do?
DJAY: What is that?
KEY: They talk people like me into walking for them.

My other favorite part is when Shug(played by Taraji P. Henson) hears herself singing- hears her own voice on a track for the 1st time. It’s like she realizes for the 1st time in her life that she’s somebody.

She sings “It’s hard out here for a pimp…”

Not the best movie ever but it’s true what they say:
“Everybody gotta have a dream.”

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

get out of that tree!

here’s something I’ve been thinking about for the past few days:
Some people say that you shouldn’t give money to the rough guys- the “bums”- who stand on the corners with signs that say “Will work for food. God bless you.” People say that you can’t trust them- people say that they’re just going to take your cash & go get drunk. Well, I think every situation is different and you just never really know whether that person is seriously in need or not. I was reading the story of Zacchaeus in Luke 19 the other day and it got me thinking.(Bear w/me… as I paraphrase & ramble.) Here was this guy who was a tax collector… this guy who no one liked and no one trusted… and Jesus looks up at him DIRECTLY and calls out to him and says “Zacchaeus! Get down! I MUST go to your house today!” And the people mutter among themselves: Jesus is going to hang out w/a sinner? So, this Monday, as I was sitting at the traffic light where my daily “bum” stands with his sign… and as I was thinking about what people say about “bums”, God reminded me and said “Hey, I want to go to his house.” No matter what other people may be thinking about someone else… it doesn’t matter because Jesus wants to visit their house. Even if they’re not living for God as Zacchaeus… even if they’re dirty and stinky… Jesus still says to them “HEY! I MUST GO TO YOUR HOUSE TODAY!” How cool is that? I love that. I love that God wants to visit my “bum”… He wants to visit the cool gothic girl who’s the checkout clerk at my grocery store… He wants to visit all of us… Get out of that tree!
And notice that the Bible doesn’t say that Jesus stopped, asked what the guy’s name was who was hanging out in the tree and then said “Zacchaeus! Come down here & let’s go hang out at your place!” No, He didn’t have to ask what Zacchaeus’ name was… (at least not that we know of) He already knew Zach’s name. I love that He knows the names of all the people in my life like the checkout clerk & the bum. yup, cool stuff.

Friday, January 20, 2006

yes, I'm still alive & breathing...

Hope everyone is doing really well and enjoying everyday life. :)
Rebecca & I went to the gym(the AC) last night. did some walking, then tried the elliptical machine (I lasted for a whole 3 minutes), then Rebecca taught me how to play basketball. (yes, I really know how to play but I’m afraid I’ve lost my skills). Dang! What has happened to me?!?! I need to take this working out stuff more seriously! I need to tone up and get back into shape!
New subject: OPRAH & THE MILLION LITTLE PIECES CONTROVERSY. Here’s the short version of what’s happened- the guy who wrote this book(James Frey) made some of his life story up but tried to pass it off as truth. On Oprah’s show, the book was said to be Frey’s true life story. Then not too long ago it came out that some of it was fabricated & I guess that Oprah didn’t handle it the way she could have… I don’t know what she said and I don’t know what she didn’t say… but if I was her I would’ve at least said Oh, hey, we found out that this was untrue and we’re sorry to have mislead you… please forgive us as we ourselves were mislead… or something like that. But i guess she didn't say that & some viewers are ticked with her.
Well, anyway, I say all of this to say that if you’re planning on reading this book (which I’ve heard is pretty good) then read it knowing that the author made some crap up so that he would seem like more of a superman than he really is. Or maybe if you’re looking for a good you-can-fight-through-it-and-win story, then just go pick up an authentic Superman comic? Don’t get me wrong, I see nothing wrong with a good book… it’s just that if it’s fictional then don’t lie and tell the world (via the Oprah show) that it’s all non-fictional truth.
Here’s an article on it:
peace out.
p.s. for all of you who've forgotten, my happy bday is monday... feel free to send me your love via ecards or gifts. :) I hate when people remind me of bdays- i'm terrible at remembering bdays!

Monday, January 09, 2006

need more oxygen

this time last week I was in Colorado. yup, went to visit Ingrid on her b-day. Even though she never reads my blog and there’s no danger of her seeing whether or not I disclose her age, I won’t do it. had a good time even though I had a slight problem with the altitude this time… i got over it by drinking tons of water.
so now I’m back home and I feel a little bit like these guys… feel like I’m trekking!
I wonder if they had problems with the altitude?